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January 2006, 28-Jan-2006, 00:00, WDC-BII Plz.

KAU KU GENGGAM - EDANE (170 Volts)

Kucoba menjadikan kenyataan
membawamu terbang tinggi diawan
Terlepas dari sgala perbedaan
Menembus batas indah langit tinggi
Mungkinkah hasratku bersamamu
Itu juga maumu

* Dihatiku kugenggam dirimu ( apa kau rasa)
Namun akupun tahu ( slalu kubertanya )
Kau jauh dariku ( menyesak di dada)
Di hatiku kau pegang tanganku ( apa kau rasa)
Namun aku sadari ( slalu ku bertanya )
Jauhnya diri ini ( menyesak didada )

Ku coba untuk lupakan dirimu
Tapi bayang mu tak lepas dariku
Ku tahu kau pendam isi hatimu
Seharusnya ku hampiri dirimu

Haruskah kau yang telah lama kuimpikan
Lewat begitu saja (back to*)

Di sini ku menanti ….. kata hati….. takkan lari …

Mungkinkah hasratku bersamamu
Itu juga maumu
Haruskah ku redam ( haruskah kuredam)
Desak yang akan meruntuhkan ( desak oh)
Dinding keangkuhanmu

Black End of 2005 & New 2006, 07-Jan-2006, :23.30, WDC-BII Plz.

White Lion - Love Don’t Come Easy

There comes a time
When baby you n me
We gotta work it out
Whatever it will be
It feels so right
But somewhere deep inside
You dont know how you feel
You dont know if it is real
Do you want it
Do you need it
Cause love dont come easy
Do you want it
Do you need it
Cause love dont come easy
There comes a time
When you wake up one day
Not knowing if our love
Will take us all the way
Then suddenly,
You feel you must decide
If we should carry on
With what weve just begun
You know that it aint always easy
You know that it aint always right
When love finds a place in your heart
Do you want it, etc.
You can walk out thru this open door
Just like so many times before
If you dont find what you are looking for
You may be lost forevermore
You know that it aint always easy
You know that it aint always right
When love finds a place in your heart
There comes a time
When baby you should know
We are gonna make it
You gotta let it show
Cause I cant wait
And find out in the end
That you will not be standing
Right here by my side

Happy Sunday Afternoom, 04-Dec-2005, 20:00, WDC-BII Plz.

Bintang Di Surga - Peterpan

Masih ku merasa angkuh
Terbang kenanganku jauh
Langit kan menangkapku
Walau kan terjatuh

Dan bila semua tercipta
Hanya untukku merasakan
Semua yang tercipta
Hampa hidup terasa

Lelah tatapku mencari
Arti untukku membagi
Menemani langkahku
Namun tak berarti

Dan bila semua tercipta
Tanpa harus ku merasakan
Cinta yang tersisa
Hampa hidup terasa

Reff:
Bagai bintang di surga
Dan seluruh warna
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Oh bintang di surga
Berikan cerita
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Black Friday After Midnight, 28-Oct-2005, 02:00, WDC-BII Plz.

A Tribute for Be Loved -"X"- Sister

Me: Just 3 days before I heard your happy voice that always makes me feel cheerfull.2 days before u said not feeling good but never care w/ ur health unless I always angry w/ ur  ad habit. Last day morning u said couldn’t hold it anymore and have to do checkup and ctscan.

Me: Until this night u sent me sms said,

"X": "After medical checkup, I’m very ill & under many medications.Bang..maafin smua keslhn "X" yg sngaja & tdk sngaja ya.Mhn Doa spy "X" cpt sembuh. Janji ama "X",Abang ga blh sedih; hrs slalu senyum & alwaysmake good deeds 2 other people slagi msh bs.Oiya..Promise me,Judesznya ilangin yach..Hehehe..Zzzz Zzz.."

Me: It just 2 night be4 I sms u after midnight told that I couldn’t sleep…I don’t know why but I told u that "I’m thinking a woman and I hate my feeling coz why I never success in loving a women". A week ago u angry /w me coz I said "Better if I never find a true love coz it wouldnt hurt me and I just wanna spent my time to lose this headache w/ a woman only just for a 1 night standing"…then I appologized that I was being in error mind.

Me: I was so very2 shock..what the hek w/ u sister and u still stuborn don’t wanna tell me what the matter w/ u. I hate u coz always keep ur problem alone like a top secret..then u said,

"X": "Bang,bknnya "X" g mo b’rahasia dgnmu,"X" g mo + bebanmu apalg yg sakit kan "X",bkn Abang.I can fight this.Ms depanmu msh pnjg.Don’t waste on what’s not clear. Abang pasti BISA!Klo Abang lg "in hope",go 4 it! If u think she’s the best 4 u & can alaways makes u happy either in good/bad times,ya udh,what r u waiting4?!Go 4 it!Tuh kan,bnr,brarti Doa adik t’kabul kan u/Abang yg wktu ucapan ultah t’lmbt. =’)) (Amen…)"

"X": "I prayed 2 God,that Abang dibrikan keshtn yg baik,pjg umur,karier sukses&smoga dtunjukn jodoh yg t’baik that will last long ever."X" senang Abang happy.."

"X": "..And the reason is you…I’m sorry that I’ve hurt you.I’ve never meant to saythose things to you cuz’ I’m not a perfect person.."

Me: Dear "X"..I never feel being hurt by you…every single word u said is perfect..so u don’t have to say sorry. I don’t know why u said like that coz’ I’ve always treat u as my beloved friend & sister…u’r my 4th unforgetable sister I’ve ever had in my life.
I was smiling when read it coz’ it similiar /w my favorite song "The Reason" by Hoobastank and Simple Plan (ur favorite band)…maybe.

Me: When u gave me a special gift in my last special day (5th Oct)..I’m very2 happy and thankfull w/ the special stuff that I’ve been waiting for..unless u said "I never meant to think about it" but God had told u…I hope it’s not ur last treat to me ur brother.

Me: At the first time I meet u until I know how deep is ur problems…u always act as if u’re strong & happy..but it’s true u’r really a strong & stuff woman. U give ur whole breathe for ur family specially ur father for ur job…and u prove it ur carrer just begin to rise. Unfortunately every body have a limit and this world have a limit too so u don’t have to prove it to all people.

Me: U always remind me t share my problem w/ another..never keep it alone…as ur beloved father do. But now u don’t want to tell me what’s ur illness.
"X"…u can’t put the whole world on ur shoulder alone…even if u have a lot of talent and power.

Me: Thanx my dear..for ur tribute to me…this friday midnight…

"X": "DinginMrasukDiKalbuKu,NamunSepiTakSggpMnusukJiwaKu,MlmSlimutiJagatRaya,TpTerangSlalu
JabatEratSukmaKu,TrimaKshRajaManusia,YgTlahCiptakanDiaDiSisiKu&M’jagaKu. =) "

Me: Sudah Lama aku g baca cara unikmu nulis sms kayak gini…pertama kali 7 bln lalu aku baca sms mu tg ada pusing bacanya tp jd lucu dan menjadi ciri khasmu…sampe terpikir koq masih kayak abg bgt tulisan sms mu hehehee…

Me: My Dear "X"…I’m sorry having sent u sms this midnight that made u think something…that,

"X": "How did u know if I was gonna b ure angel & watching over u from up above????? =’(
I never meant to write it to make u be more sad…the sms just to make u laugh and smile…

"X": "Abang…Lg apa?"X" g bs bo2.Smlman nangis"…

Me: "X" sweetheart…remember that…

Me: Believe that God will show His miracle if we always ask and believe in Him.

Me: The Bible says:"There is nothing impossible with God, but there’s something HE can’t do: HE can’t stop loving you!"

Me: Dia yg dapat melakukan jauh lebih dari apa yg kita dapat bayangkan, bukan saja akan menenangkan badai dalam hidup kita, tetapi juga melindungi kita dr segala yg jahat.

"X": "X" sbnrnya slh crita ama Abang ttg sakit "X" krn saat ini Abang lg bahagia bgt. "X" ga mo ngrusak!Udh ah…Anggap aj "X" ga sakit krn "X" ga mo prilaku Abang jd brubah hny krn "X" sakit."X" lbh suka klo Abangmp’tahankan kjudesan&kgalakan-nya..Bang,1 hal lh,hny 2 orgyg tau "X" sakit ini.I just don’t have the heart 2 hurt u.It’s the last thing I wanna do.Plz jgn ksh tau kel ku.PROMISE yach!"X" ga mo + beban pikirankel -ku.Mskpn hidup "X" bnyk bgt cobaan..at least I want 2 RIP… =’))

Me: I’ll always pray to our Lord "Jesus" for u -"X"- sweetheart my beloved sister…

Black Friday After Midnight, 28-Oct-2005, 01:00, WDC-BII Plz.

The Reason - Hoobastank

I’m not a perfect person
There’s many things I wish I didn’t do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’m sorry that I hurt you
It’s something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why I need you to hear

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you

I’m not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

Another Fucking Friday After Midnight, 28-Oct-2005, 00:30, WDC-BII Plz.

Quiet Admiration - Kate Dowd

                  My soul forms the words,
                  My heart ensnares them,
                  Locking them in its warm chambers,
                  My mind knows these words,
                  And my fingers write these words,
                  Yet my lips,
                  The dastardly things
                  They find no valor,
                  And can not form the words.

                  How is it that I can feel these words,
                  With so much hope and admiration
                  Just for you,
                  Yet my lips can not speak them
                  To tell you
                  Of your shy smile
                  And your crystal eyes?
                  I am enamored by you,
                  By your words and your laughter.

                  You leave me breathless,
                  As the air leaps out of my mouth,
                  Twirling and bowing to your charms,
                  Enchanted by your congeniality.
                  Your face is imprinted in my mind
                  Never leaving,
                  Never fading.
                  Your smile warming my heart,
                  And your eyes entrancing my soul.

                  I wish I could form my feelings
                  Into articulate words
                  Of love and wonder
                  And tell you of my feelings,
                  Let you know of my aspiration
                  To be held securely in your arms,
                  Where I long to be,
                  Sitting serenely with you,
                  Basking in the sweet resonance of stillness.

                  But I know that wish is unattainable,
                  Far out of my reach,
                  Yet I admire you still,
                  Yearning that one day you’ll notice me
                  As more than just a girl
                  But as a young woman
                  Whose heart you’ve whisked away
                  Into the perpetual sky,
                  Floating along the clouds.

                  And everyday I linger
                  Hoping for some acknowledgment,
                  A fleeting look or a petite hello.
                  Perhaps to even hear you speak my name
                  Would bring warmth to my heart
                  And joy to my days
                  As I wait for you to discern
                  That I, quietly,
                  Admire you.

Another Fucking Friday After Midnight, 28-Oct-2005, 00:05, WDC-BII Plz.

TRUE - Ryan Cabrera

I won't talkI won't breatheI won't move till you finally seeThat you belong with me

You might think I don't lookBut deep inside the corner of my mindI'm attatched to yoummmm

I'm weak, it's trueCause I'm afraid to know the answerDo you want me too?Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing that's trueSo I will not hideIt's time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is true

You don't know what you doEverytime you walk into the roomI'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's trueI'm just scared to know the endingDo you see me too?Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIt's time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is true

I know when I goI'll be on my way to youThe way that's true

[chorus]I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIt's time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is true

Sunday Afternoon, 15-Oct-2005, 11:40, WDC-BII Plz.

The Power Of The Dream - Celine Dion

Deep within each heart

There lies a magic spark

That lights the fire of our imagination

And since the dawn of man

The strenght of just "I can"

Has brought together people of all nations

There’s nothing ordinary

In the living of each day

There’s a special part

Every one of us will play

Feel the flame forever burn

Teaching lessons we must learn

To bring us closer to the power of the dream

As the world gives us its best

To stand apart from all the rest

It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Your mind will take you far

The rest is just pure heart

You’ll find your fate is all your own creation

Every boy and girl

As they come into this world

They bring the gift of hope and inspiration

Feel the flame forever burn

Teaching lessons we must learn

To bring us closer to the power of the dream

The world unites in hope and peace

We pray that it will always be

It is the power of the dream that brings us here

There’s so much strength in all of us

Every woman child and man

It’s the moment that you think you can’t

You’ll discover that you can

Feel the flame forever burn

Teaching lessons we must learn

To bring us closer to the power of the dream

The world unites in hope and peace

We pray that it will always be

It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Feel the flame forever burn

Teaching lessons we must learn

To bring us closer to the power of the dream

The world unites in hope and peace

We pray that it will always be

It is the power of the dream that brings us here

The power of the dream

The faith in things unseen

The courage to embrace your fear

No matter where you are

To reach for your own star

To realize the power of the dream

Friday Night, 14-Oct-2005, 21:30, WDC-BII Plz.
My Favorite British Band…coz today is Friday and tommorow will full of roses…ohh "my lovely guitar" I wish u were here babe to fullfill my  heart…Arghhh…I’m very2 love this song.

Friday I’m In Love - The Cure

I don’t care if monday’s blue
tuesday’s grey and wednesday too
thursday I don’t care about you
it’s friday I’m in love

monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn’t even start
it’s friday I’m in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate…

I don’t care if monday’s black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it’s friday I’m in love

monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it’s friday I’m in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate…

dressed up to the eyes
it’s a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it’s such a gorgeous sight
to see you in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it’s friday
I’m in love

Friday Night, 14-Oct-2005, 21:00, WDC-BII Plz.
My Canada Bad Boys Band…love, simple, straight, and beatfull

Perfect World - Simple Plan

I never could’ve seen this far
I never could’ve seen this coming
Seems like my world’s falling apart

Yeah

Why is everything so hard
I don’t think I can deal with the things you said
It just won’t go away

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through

Yeah

I pictured I could bring you back
I pictured I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Yeah
Without you I just can’t find my way

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when you’re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go

Yeah
Yeah

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
Nothing, nothing at all
Nothing at all